Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Elaine's Diary, aka Dead Depressing

This will all make sense shortly.

monday, october 3
7:15am
                Holy POOP it is nipply outside! Where did summer go? It seems like just yesterday I was shaving my legs regularly and squeezing into shorty shorts. Now all of a sudden I need to bust out the unflattering winter coat. Sigh.

7:20am
                Can’t find my winter coat. Instead, I’ll wear a dress and my muffin hat! It’s a nice knit hat in the shape of a muffin. You may have already inferred this. That’s because you are a lovely, nice smart diary-peeker.

7:39am
                Dangit, I forgot that I have marching band rehearsal this morning. It’s hard to be taken seriously as a drum major when there’s a muffin on your head.

9:00am
                Even though I am wearing every knit article of clothing I own (ie knit dress, knit muffin hat, knit sweater, knit tights) I still feel like a camel on an ice floe. Ergo, very cold.
                Maybe I should have worn my knit boots too.

10:45am
                Off to English now. I’ve been getting some strange looks from people. I can’t tell if they are stunned by my beauty or by the sheer amount of knit that I am wearing. Probably both.

11:30am
                I love English class. Our teacher is threatening Unfortunate Liam with a toy sword. She calls it Grumpy Sword.

11:31am
                Oh dear, she has a Grumpy Rock, too. She’s brandishing it at us cause we’re doing something wrong. I’m not sure exactly what though because I was talking and not paying attention.

two seconds later
                Grumpy Rock is quite a large size. I’m starting to feel a little unsafe.

11:33am
                Now she’s threatening us with Grumpy Baseball Bat. Maybe we should stop talking or something.

12:10pm
lunch
                I’m eating my lunch in the band room again. I’ve never actually had lunch in the cafeteria with all the other kids, they are all normal and it makes me insecure.
                Speaking of insecurity, it is that time of year when boys ask girls to Homecoming in ‘creative’ ways, and trust me, it is dead depressing when your boyfriend is on the other side of the globe. Our school is overrun with loads of signs that say “Homecoming?” and candles spelling out “Homecoming?” and “Homecoming?” chalked all over the student parking lot.
                I feel a bit as if I am the only high schooler in the world without a date. I probably am, actually. I don’t think I know anybody else still doing long-distance, they’ve all turkey-dropped each other already. Dead depressing.

12:21pm
                Though honestly I have never much enjoyed Homecoming anyway. I can’t dance and I don’t grind with others on principle (that principle being ‘keep your junk out of my butthole, thanks’). Also for some reason I never have a date. Once again, boys are probably intimidated by my beauty.

two seconds later
                And by my muffin hat.

three minutes later
                Kind of ironic how “muffin” rhymes with “depression”, right?

12:45pm
                I told Mr. Thomas how I was depressed and hated this time of year. His response was, “Don’t hate school, this is the last time you’ll ever be here, you should enjoy it. Besides, you never listen to what anybody tells you anyway, you just do what you want. So why be depressed?”
                When he puts it like that, it makes me feel better. It is true that I am basically the Lion King of the school. Also, I am getting better at math, and I told him so. “I know now that when things are in the parenthesis you have to distribute.”
                “I don’t even know what you’re talking about,” Mr. Thomas said. “The last time I took a math class was in 1973.”

12:50pm
              Just realized that I have been in pre-calc for the past three years. Dead depressing.

later
                Went out to the breezeway between classes for once. I overheard a cute couple and it made me miss Marc. The girl was dropping hints about Homecoming that were steadily growing more obvious (“Homecoming is eleven days from now, not that I’m counting, haha no but really. My  dress is so low-cut, I’m like not even going to wear a bra. George gave Amanda roses that had “Homecoming?” embossed in gold on the stems, it was so adorable.”).  Her boyfriend kept saying “yeah” while trying to touch her butt. At one point she asked if he was tuning her out and he said “yeah”. She said, “Oh, okay,” and kept on talking.
                Young love is so cute!

later
               I found Tim on the breezeway and I told him I was lonely, so he gave me a hug. I was feeling a bit needy though so I didn’t let go for a long time. Even once he started wiggling and yelling, I just yelled right back. I am like a squid who needs love.

4:30pm
                I’m talking to Marc on the phone, but I just looked in the mirror and I have terrible hathair, thanks to the muffin. What if he can sense that I’m not looking my best?
                I’m gonna cut my hair.

4:35pm
                Oh dear, I accidentally gave myself a bowl cut.

two seconds later
                It’s okay. It’s just the bangs. I can fix this.

five minutes later
                So-called ‘mother’ walked in my room. “Oh my God, Elaine, did you cut your own hair? You did, didn’t you?” Then she lectured me for about twelve billion years. I was a fossil by the time she was done.

5:15pm
                It really doesn’t look so bad if I part my hair on the other side.

5:16pm
                Who cares anyway. Not me. That’s who doesn’t care. It’s not like I have a Homecoming date anyway. My boyfriend lives in Ohio, I can totally conceal this little hair disaster from him, no problem.


5:30pm
                Birds are singing outside my window. Shut up, birds. I hate you.

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